Still walking

And suddenly I asked the question, why am I doing this? Not that I don't know the answer, but I realised it is a sign of rebellion against change. I literally dragged myself out of the bed and promised myself it is just going to be a short walk. Maybe just 15 minutes. I stretched slow, then I walked slower than a funeral march (it felt like that). The speed picked up after a while but it dropped again and I finally walked home feeling almost defeated. I am so tired. I only managed a slow walk of 20 minutes today... but I am still walking.